Dealing with My Monkey Brain

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DAY 11-14 of Tea and Meditation:

Another four days have flown by and here it is exactly two weeks from the start date of my tea and meditation journey.

Only fourteen short days ago, I had declared that I wanted to experience more alert peacefulness in my life by meditating over tea for at least five minutes each day.

Well, I’ve certainly made progress towards this end, but I still find myself struggling to stay in the moment; that moment when complete relaxation and focus merge to create an ideal state of being.

Finding it Difficult to Quiet My Mind:

When attempting to meditate, even for just five minutes, I’ve found it difficult to quiet my mind. Just when I find myself slip into that wonderful state of alert peacefulness my head starts thinking about stupid stuff I’ve got to do like organizing my Spirituality & Health magazines, looking to see what new movies are coming out, washing the cat bed, or dusting the bookshelf.

Next thing I know, I’m trying to silence my uncooperative mind again. I admonish my monkey brain with, “Shut up you! Can’t you see I’m trying to meditate here? Duh!”

After a minute or so of playing tug-of-war with my left and right brain, I am able to once again reach that beautiful place of alert peacefulness.

However, my visit is usually cut short by my inner voice screaming, “You’ve got stuff to do!”

This tends to jolt me right out of my blissful serenity and into action. I find myself repeating, as if it were a mantra, “I’ve got stuff to do, I’ve got stuff to do, I’ve got stuff to do.” Boom-boom-boom, it’s as if pots and pans being banged together.

Talking myself into this lie, of having important stuff to do right now, urges me to surrender  my meditative state and go searching for the feather duster.

Now or Never:

Despite the challenges of trying to quiet my one-track mind, I’m still committed to taking time each day to mediate. For years, I’ve wanted to experience meditation. I just never made the time; there was always something more important to do. Are you noticing a pattern here?

When it comes right down to it, if I don’t choose to make it a habit to meditate now, I’m not sure that I ever will.

I don’t know about you, but I don’t want to be on my deathbed feeling distraught because I never made time for those things that I really wanted to do. Instead, I want to be lying there thinking about the wonderful life I had led.

What’s Next?

If you’ve been reading along for the past two weeks, you’ll perhaps recall that my original intention was to write about my tea and meditation experience every day. And, you’ve likely noticed that after Day 2, every day became every three to four days.

I guess, I was a bit gung-ho when writing that first post about living a tea lifestyle.  I’m still quite enthusiastic about the whole endeavor, but I‘ve been wondering where do I go from here. Do I keep doing what I’ve been doing, writing a post every now and again, or do I scrap the whole idea and call it a done deal?

Or perhaps, there is an option number three, which would be to recommit to my original goal of writing a little something every day about my tea and meditation experience.

I’m leaning towards option three, for three reasons:

1. I just don’t feel as if I’ve truly given my heart and soul to the effort yet. Who knows what might happen if I really do this thing and commit to it with fierce determination—take on a “just do it” attitude.

2. I am new to blogging, and therefore, spend way too much time over-thinking each sentence. Maybe if I attempt to write a little something every day it will force me to be a bit less perfectionist. Hopefully, my writing ability will improve as well.

3. I have to wonder if there might be someone out there who is in a similar position; someone who has never meditated before, who wants to live a tea lifestyle, and who is struggling with getting started. Perhaps my experience could, in a small way, be encouraging.

I think I’ll go with option three and re-commit to posting everyday. Who knows what might happen!

This is “a girl with tea” signing off once again.

Remember to live, laugh, love and drink plenty of tea.

Amy

Photo Credit: kevin j – via Flickr CC Attribution License

[box] Have you ever had a goal you really wanted to achieve, but something kept getting in your way? [/box]

Day 1: Exploring Alert Peacefulness One Day at a Time

Day 2: When Life Throws You a Curve Ball Make Tea

Day 3-7: Stay Aware of What You Are Doing Right

Day 8-10: Starting the Day with Meditation

10 comments on “Dealing with My Monkey Brain

  1. Jeanine Byers Hoag September 21, 2010 5:11 PM

    Hi, Amy!

    I’m with you on this daily tea-and-meditation journey (did you know that I mentioned you in my blog and posted a link back to this one?). Sometimes the only reason I meditate on a specific day is that I know if I don’t, I’ll have to confess on my blog!

    My mind wanders, to, and also rehearses what I have to do, and sometimes urges me to get up and do it.

    I don’t know if you have bitten off more than you can chew but I am glad to know there’s someone else trying it, too!

    Jeanine

    • a girl with tea September 22, 2010 3:44 AM

      Thanks for the mention Jeanine! I’m glad that I am not the only one who finds my brain screaming at me to do something “more productive” when trying to meditate. Oh, and I love to read your posts over at http://whatsinyourteacup.blogspot.com/

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